God where were You?

In My Father's house there are many dwelling places(homes.)If it were not so, I would have told you; for I am going away to prepare a place for you. John 14:2 (Amplified)

As I stood in the shower pouring out my heart to God asking Him "God where were You when Liz needed You, You could have stopped this from happening!" In the quietness of the moment, I heard with more my heart than with my ears, "I was the same place I was when My Son died".

I felt so humbled, embarrassed even. How could I possibly forget that God lost a child just like I did? Then, last night as I sat through one of the GriefShare groups that I facilitate I once again heard those words come from the mouth of someone else. It wrenched my heart. As Easter is almost here it reminded me of the sacrifice God made in sending His Son to earth to die for our sins.

I am still in awe of just what Jesus did for us, for you, and for me. I know me and in my opinion I'm not at all worth dying for. I am so glad that God did not leave that particular decision to me. However; the decision that He did leave for me is whether I choose to accept the forgiveness offered because of Jesus death and resurrection! Salvation is very real, and very necessary. In Acts 4:12 it says And there is salvation in and through no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by and in which we must be saved. (Amp.)

How could a God that is so loving, so wise, freely give a Son to die for us? I personally cannot imagine having to give up another child for someone's salvation. Matter of fact I have told God as much. When Liz died I saw so many lives change. There were people at Liz's funeral that heard a salvation message given and responded to it. People were seeing their need for a savior, and making decisions for Christ. That is all except for some people in my family. It did nothing for them. They are not one step closer to heaven now, than they were before Liz died. How is it even possible? I truly do not want to give up another child before they see their need for salvation. Yet, God in His infinite wisdom sent His only son to earth for that exact purpose!

So where was God when my daughter needed Him most? God was in heaven, preparing a place for us to live when our life ends here on this earth. Yet He was also at her side comforting her as no one else could.

Lord, help me to trust that You are right where I need for You to be, and always there for me. Thank You for sending Your Son to this world to die for our sins. Amen

Becki Reiser